Today I woke up with a feeling of dread.
Doubt coursed through my veins. Dread blurred my vision, and I felt like staying in bed forever.
Then I went to Amazon, which I shouldn’t have done, and saw that one of my books had received a 2-star review. That didn’t help.
The reason I share this is to show you that I am as human as you are. Everyone has challenges, even successful entrepreneurs and writers.
I’m writing this to help you see that you do not lack anything. You can start writing right now. You don’t have to feel ready. You don’t even have to feel good.
Doubts, fears, and worries are a part of a writer’s life.
Now, let’s dive deeper into some of the doubts I ran into while writing my latest books: How to Write Nonfiction eBooks and How I Made Over $100,000 Online Doing What I Love (this book is no longer in print).
1. I Don’t Know What I’m Doing
When I’m writing a book, I know I’ll get confused. It’s inevitable. At some point, I’ll run into an obstacle that seems insurmountable.
I’ll want to give up. I’ll wonder why I’m doing this in the first place. But I’ve been through the cycle of doubt so many times that I know that the answer is to stop. Not forever, but to take a break.
My mind wants to push through and force a solution, but it’s when I most want to force that I most need to let go.
The impostor syndrome is common in writers and creative types. What we create doesn’t feel good enough. But just because it doesn’t feel good enough doesn’t make it so.
The more I’ve written, the more I’ve come to know my patterns of thought. I don’t have to believe every thought that passes through my mind.
It’s not always easy to not believe, because thoughts can seem to gobble you up. But it helps to know that thoughts come and go. When your state of mind changes, so do your thoughts.
2. Is This Good Enough?
At the core of most of these doubts is the question: Is this good enough?
Good enough for who? For what purpose?
We compare ourselves to imaginary ideals, which often have nothing to do with the real world.
I write because I love to write. Whether my writing is good enough or not doesn’t matter. What matters is the pull to write.
If I’m doing my best, and writing, that is enough. I can only write, and put my writing out there, the rest is up to life.
If someone hates what I write, that’s fine. I’ll keep writing.
The question isn’t if what your writing is good enough, or if you’re good enough, it’s: “Am I doing what I love?”
3. Will It Sell?
I worry about whether or not my book will sell, which seems to run against what I said above about doing what I love.
Deep down, I want my book to sell so I can get approval and security. Like any good story, there’s conflict in our lives, because we are the hero in our story.
I don’t know if any book I write will sell. I don’t know if anyone will buy. I can only do my best, listen to what my audience wants, and write.
I focus on what I can do, which is to write.
So whatever you do, write, and keep writing, no matter what.
And really, we don’t know where our inspiration will take us. Writing books that bomb may be exactly what’s needed to move forward.
4. Why Bother?
I compare myself to writers that I think are better than me.
I doubt myself, and my ability to write. Even though I regularly receive thank-you emails, I still feel insecure.
Once I catch myself, I remember that I write because I want to write. No other reason is necessary.
Being a good writer is subjective. Yes, there are objective signs, but even the best writers aren’t liked by everyone. Even the best novels in the world have 1-star reviews.
I don’t have to justify what I do to anyone. Not even to myself. I write. That’s enough.
I put my inspiration first. I follow my heart. I have bad days, like anyone else, but I keep writing, because it’s something I can’t not do.
5. My Story is Mundane
With my book, How I Made Over $100,000 Online Doing What I Love, I shared my story, and parts of me that I haven’t revealed before. But my story felt as mundane as tying my shoes.
I questioned whether or not anyone would want to read it. But I also knew that my story would always feel mundane to me.
When you know something as intimately as your own story, it feels boring. I knew this, so what I did was get my book to good enough, and send out review copies.
I wanted real feedback from real people, and I wanted to avoid assuming that my writing was crap.
I also knew that any book covering the topic of making money online was going to be met with some resistance, but I decided to do it anyway, because my readers were interested in learning the truth about making a living online.
Your story helps you stand out from the crowd, but you’ll do everything to avoid telling your story. Funny how that works, isn’t it?
Tell your story, and challenge your assumptions. You don’t know what will happen unless you take action.
Ernest Hemingway put it well when he said: “There is nothing to writing. All you do is sit down at a typewriter and bleed.”
Use your pain and suffering and channel it into your writing. It is energy waiting to be transmuted.
The Not So Dreadful Conclusion
As writers, we wage an internal war.
We want to write, yet we’re scared to put our writing out there.
We want success, but at the same time we’re afraid of it.
Will you overcome your doubts and write? Will you slay the dragon and emerge victorious?
Only you can decide.
It won’t feel good. The stars will not align. You have to start before you’re ready, and before you feel ready.
But once you start, you realize that things weren’t as bad as you made them out to be. You realize that overcoming your doubts is part of the fun.
You are the protagonist in your own story. Your struggles, doubts, and fears are what give you depth and wisdom as a human being. They give you fodder for your writing, so embrace them with open arms.
Write because you want to write.
No other reason is required.
I love it! When I proofread my own stuff, my doubting self likes to mutter the word “drivel”. Coming from someone I regard as accomplished, your encouragement is much appreciated.
Yup, we all have one of those voices lurking in the depths of our mind. Deep down, even that voice wants the best for us.
Nice one Henri. As a writer it won’t surprise you that I have experienced everything you talk about above. But like someone that wants to train for a marathon – they are not ready to run a marathon, but they must take the first step of getting the correct attire. Stretching, eating correctly, then ‘running’. Slowly at first, and not very far. But, bit by bit, go a bit further and a bit further. I like to ponder whether my mindset creates my thoughts or my thoughts create my mindset. In reality I think it’s a cycle that’s been happening since we were born. Chicken and egg. Who knows? Once again you’ve inspired me. 🙂
Well put, Stuart. Really appreciate you stopping by to share your wisdom 🙂
Great article Henri!
This is a must read for every inspiring author. The Hemmingway quote is awesome 🙂
Thanks Dejan!
Thanks, Henri! This is just what I needed to read today.
Shazam! Keep rocking, Dave 😉
Henri,
I’m in the process of reading your latest book and is without a doubt a fantastic and very informative read. It literally is helping with my current projects right now. Your writing is very comprehensible and I think that’s something people struggle with. But your book helps crush that. And I do believe that you said not everyone will always like your books or articles because something inside the book doesn’t resonate with the reader. Just keep at it you’re doing great! Thank you for sharing your lessons and beliefs with us!
Thanks Jacob. I’m glad you’re enjoy my latest book (How to Write Nonfiction eBooks).
And I couldn’t agree more. Your book is not right for everyone. Don’t try to cater to everyone. Write for the reader who would love to read your work.
Wow Henri this is right on point. Your newsletter is one of the very few I read. Your sincerity comes right through in your writing.
Thank you for your honesty and realness!
You are an inspiration to all other writers and I thank you.
Thank you, Trisia. I appreciate the kind words!
Hi Henri,
I have a pending first e-book that has diagrams and tables. I’m picking up contradictory information as to whether e-books (in .mobi, and .epub formats) can handle diagrams etc (due to scrolling issues on the variety of hand-held reading devices?), or whether it is print only. I know the technology is changing fast, but can you point me in the right direction to find a definitive answer?
Many thanks for your emails over the past year.
Josh
Hey Joshua,
Unfortunately, I don’t know. I haven’t dealt with this myself, nor do I know of anyone who has. Common sense would say that there might be issues with size, especially with smaller devices.
I would contact Amazon directly and ask.
Hi Henry,
I believe this is my first time to comment, although I visited your site many times. Your article is both healing and convicting. Healing, because your words are like a warm fire on a cold nite, saying, “Just write!” Convicting, because… I know you’re right.
I do have a book in the crock-pot, but where it needs to be is on the front burner. Thanks for firing me up!
Aloha,
Robb
I can appreciate fully what you revealed here. Thanks for that. I like how you kept going and ultimately made it through. It shows a lot of character bro which does a lot of great for the world. Thanks for showing your strength by being vulnerable.
Love it love it love it! Great words to keep ringing in my ears!
I just finished writing my novel that I have been struggling to spit out for years….I’ve wanted to be a writer for as long as I can remember. I started making book covers at twelve. I was just obsessed with words, and moreover, books. Books, books, books. I’d spend hours on Goodreads to see just what people liked in a character, in a plot, in a antagonist, everything. I was fanatical about creating something people would love. So when I finished my OWN, (and mind you I’ve read the thing three times, changed it, cut things out, added things in, the whole shaping of the story), sometimes, I’ll have days where I’ll crow in joy at creating something I find worth reading. And then today, I gave my book to a women to review, and now I’m starting to doubt my writing skills, my talent, if I have any at all. Like, I’m literally terrified if she doesn’t like it. And not the action of her actually NOT liking it, but my REACTION to her not liking it. I think I’ll be very depressed for several days, and not want to get out of my bed (just like you). Because as writers, your book is your baby. It came from you, and you don’t want anyone to bash it or disagree with it. Especially after you spent so much time on it. I literally would be up in the wee hours of the night typing, tired, but chugging though, because I knew I had a deadline, and I knew how much I wanted this. Your article really helped me. I’m still terrified, but it helped me recognize that regardless if I have real talent or not, I write because I simply LOVE the way it makes me feel. And to not stop, even if things don’t work out….
Thanks for sharing that, Nia. Whatever happens, listen to your heart over your mind. Your heart knows that you are a writer, but your mind doubts. Keep writing, and keep doing your best. That’s all we can ever do 🙂