I didn’t know I’d end up doing what I do today.
I built my first website when I was 14. I started trying to make money online in 2006-2007.
I spent $10,000+ on coaching, courses, and every other product between heaven and earth, looking for shortcuts and secret formulas.
I failed over and over again. Those failures helped chip away what I thought I wanted, and reveal what made my heart sing.
But even with that insight, I was imprisoned by my fears and doubts.
I needed more money. More confidence. More … something.
I paced my imaginary jail cell for years, until something snapped. Enough was enough.
I felt drawn to share what I had discovered in the area of personal growth. It resonated. It felt alive.
I was going to do what I loved, with or without fear. If I ended up homeless, hopeless, and embarrassed, so be it.
The Birth of Wake Up Cloud
In 2009, I started Wake Up Cloud, this blog.
I was out of my shackles, but I was still shaking.
“What if people don’t like what I had to say?”
“What if I can’t make a living doing this?”
“Why would anyone listen to me when there are so many others out there?”
Fears were present, but I now had focus. I realized that I could give in and go back to my cell, or I could challenge my mind, and keep going.
I knew I had found my passion, because it felt magnetic. I felt subtle excitement.
Hello Fear and Confusion
I wrote. I built my readership. I built a business from nothing.
Yet I was still hesitant. Paralyzed even.
But I kept re-focusing on one step at a time, one day at a time.
Living your passion is painted as a utopia, when it’s often more terrifying than a normal existence. Why do you think so many people choose the safe road?
You have to learn how to transcend your mind in order to travel this path.
There is confusion, fear, and everything else, but they are not a problem if you know how to handle them.
If you give in, and take every thought seriously, you end up stopping before you’ve even started.
One Step at a Time
I found my passion by taking one step at a time. I stumbled upon it through making mistakes.
It is through experimenting and observing myself that I discovered how my inner GPS worked.
All you ever need to do is take one step at a time. You don’t have to have the whole map. You don’t even know your final destination, so forget about having a map.
Examine your limiting beliefs. Look at how you put imaginary shackles around your ankles.
You don’t need perfection. You need execution. That’s when you gather real world data. You see how things really work instead of how you think they work.
Notice your fears, then take one step forward anyway.
Do that enough and you discover that your mind cannot predict the future, and doesn’t need to be taken seriously.
9 Years Later
I started in 2009. As I write this, it’s now 9 years later.
You would never have read these words had I not been willing to take that first step.
Even now, I have no idea where my life is going. All I can do is take one day at a time, one step at a time.
I follow what feels magnetic, while tending to the practical needs of my family.
I am not fearless. I am not a genius. I do not have something you don’t.
I am simply willing to put one foot in front of the other.
The Dark Night of the Soul
Between 2014 and 2016, I went through what many call the dark night of the soul.
My life suddenly lost all meaning. Everything seemed pointless and hopeless.
I wrote about it here:
- On Depression, Feeling Worthless and Finding Your Truth
- 12 Steps to Overcoming Spiritual Depression (or the Dark Night of the Soul)
- Every Time My Life is Falling Apart, Here’s What I Do
I share this because when you have the right expectations, you are more likely to live a satisfying life.
Living my passion isn’t about escaping life, it’s about embracing it wholeheartedly.
Going through a dark night was brutal, but the rewards are inspiration, clarity, and peace.
I have deeper insight into how my mind works, which means I can help myself, and help you with that much more power.
I am deeply grateful for what I went through.
I found my passion by making mistakes.
I followed the breadcrumbs life left me.
But I also realized that I had to be willing to step through my fears. I had to be willing to see if my mind was right (it wasn’t).
Fear is a part of this path. And that’s okay. Don’t shrink away from it. Instead, transcend it. Slay the dragon, and capture the treasure which is the freedom to live your life your way.
Forget perfection. Let your journey be a mess.
All you can do is your best. So take one step at a time. Make mistakes. Learn.
Let go of the oars and let the river of life guide you.
Your mind will say what if, but you just say hi, and keep going.
All the best,
P.S. If you’re interested in diving deeper into exploring your passion, I suggest you check out my popular book Find Your Passion: 25 Questions You Must Ask Yourself.